Noviles and Novile Triangle Interpretation

The novile family (“Nineness”) is like a trine but to the third power

As I first described in Aspects on Steroids, noviles appear to have an ethereal character, but this falls away once one steps outside one’s incarnated reality. Noviles become quite matter-of-fact because their essential characteristic is joy from acceptance of the world as it is, joy from “loving it anyway,” finding the beauty in it. The novile family (“Nineness,” thank you David Hamblin!) is like a trine but to the third power. Unlike quintile and septile people, novile people do not try to change the world; they accept it as it is. And where Threeness—trines—harmonizes with the world subjectively and instinctively, Nineness perceives the diversity of the world, accepts the apparent chaos of it all, and feels love and joy.

As Zorba says, Nineness loves “the whole catastrophe.”

Joy only results when one acts spontaneously from a spirit/soul place. The mind cannot conjure joy. So Nineness acceptance is far from resignation, in case you were wondering. The joy, for me, anyway, results from seeing the pain, beauty, incongruity, immensity of the universe, our incarnated “world,” feeling it according to our values, which cause us to love some things and hate other things. I associate this kind of earthly “love” and “hate” with ego energy because it is vibrant and lacks detachment.

For example, in Life and Death, I shared the surprising joy I had discovered by realizing that I was already dead, that I saw so clearly that time only existed within the incarnated world. I discovered so much freedom from the lack of fear of death. I felt more alive than ever. I associate this kind of ethos with Nineness.

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The Horrifying Thing About Faith

I am feeling a profound, long-held irony about faith as I release this liquid born of must that is centuries old. As Chiron is my rising planet, in Pisces, the key part of my wound was my connection to the divine. I also have a very compromised Jupiter placement; hence, crisis of faith is something I brought into this life.

Let’s explore the idea of “faith” a little. I think we can expand our horizons and awareness. I have been reflecting on it with my mind and my higher awareness.

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Pain

Did you know that pain can diminish you, or add to you, and its effect is totally based on how you experience it?

How do you bear pain?

For me, if I experience pain from an Ego place, I feel anger or self pity (“Fuck you! Why me?”).

If I experience pain from Spirit, I feel gratitude (“Wow, I can feel this pain, but I need not take it personally; what can I learn?”).

In the first case, I feel that pain takes something from me. In the second, it adds to me.

This feels so weird to say, but I experience that pain I experience from a Spirit place is a kind of ecstasy (tears, sobs).

Yes, ‘tis true for me.

Why are sadness, pain, and ecstasy so close to each other?

I imagine it’s because pain comes from Ego, realizing that he really has no consequence, and joy comes from Spirit who rejoices in the wholeness and connection of all.

So, Ego is truly an illusion, a wonderful temporary illusion. So Ego is diminished in pain, but Spirit feels no pain because it is the whole. It knows pain doesn’t really exist.

So, experiencing them both, in stereo, is exquisite.

An Unusual Reason for Not Wearing a Mask

It’s hard to find a more emotional topic than “to mask” or “not to mask” as most people consider it a life and death issue. I can’t remember talking with anyone who was on the fence or undecided. And many people struggle with tolerating people who make the other decision.

I have also learned that, among my non-medical friends, I have unusual reasoning behind my choice, so I will share that here in case it’s interesting or helpful to you. If you’ve been reading a while, you might guess that it’s grounded in my dark night journey. Continue reading “An Unusual Reason for Not Wearing a Mask”

Ego and Sex

Over the last week, I have realized something astounding that I want to share tonight, a surprising side effect of Ego’s having agreed to sit in the back seat of the car while Spirit drives. In short, I have become aware of sex at a completely new level. As much as I love touching my lover physically, emotionally and spiritually, I have realized how limiting sex is, that it imposes a huge cost on relationships, and when it is absent, relationships can accelerate.

If I were reading this, I would think the writer was completely bats, and my mind would imagine how many ways he could be weird or crazy or repressed or… That said, I invite you to join me on this short exploration: it might enable you to transform some of your relationships in surprising ways. Continue reading “Ego and Sex”

Why I Rarely Listen to Popular Music Part 2

Since writing Part 1, I have reverberating in my head that the love I experience now is completely different from the love I had experienced before my Dark Night journey, that love which resonates with popular love songs’ depiction of love. I find this difference to be surprising and simple, yet profound, so here I’ll contrast the two further. Continue reading “Why I Rarely Listen to Popular Music Part 2”

Why I Rarely Listen to Popular Music

You may have noticed that the lion’s share of popular songs is about romantic love, whether rock, pop, folk, R&B, or other. For much of my life, I sang along with them, lamenting my own string of romantic windmills. The fact that I’d studied the development of romantic French literature and psychology did little to dissuade my own desire for the romantic ideal that pervades popular songs. The beloved is presented as an object to be adored, sought, kept, rejected, or hated, all too oft in that order. It’s a preoccupation of songwriters (and song buyers ;^), seemingly regardless of language or culture.

Then my Dark Night process changed everything. One of its surprising side effects has been a transformation of what I experienced as “love.” I love much more intensely than ever, but it’s a completely different thing than it was before, and here I’ll try to explain it in case it is helpful to you. Continue reading “Why I Rarely Listen to Popular Music”